http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1zeR3NSYcHk

even though i should be writting my essay right now, im listening to new britney spears cd. minus the crazy drug britney we all whitnessed....shes pretty much amazing and keeps coming out with better and better music. Im in love with Circus haha

new stuff? umm....got my liscense? i dont know if i mentioned that before. thats pretty much it.

im excited for thanksgiving break. i wanna see all of you!

i dont know if ive mentioned this before...because its been so long since ive posted on this thing, and dont wish to look back at what ive said...but a group of 3 "best friends" just doesnt work out. let me tell ya....it just doesnt work. someone will always feel left out, deserted, jealous, angry, sad, and so on...
this soon leads to backstabbing, lying, and other things. ohh jeez

but im back at taekwondo! :D my mom finally came to her sensus and realized that signing me back up was the right thing to do :)

so i havent posted in forever. i know. and im not gonna lie...i havent even been on this thing for a while. i don't know what any of you are up to. but heres the low down

school is hard. im getting like all B's the occasional C's. my mom thinks i don't study and that im not going to get into college. like im not exagerating. she sees me as some sort of student failure.
my mom is constantly mad at me...im not even doing taekwondo at the moment. my mom refuses to pay (long story) and of course daddyo wont pay for it either.
other then that though life is just peachy :)
i have a boyfriend. uhhh ya... thats pretty much it.

so i am now faced with the decision to taekwondo train a few hours everyday for a year until next summer in order to go to the junior olympics. so i would basically go to school for six hours, come home and go straight to tkd for a few hours to train, come home and do homework and go to sleep and do it all over again the next day until next summer. Oh my god. i am 16. i need a life too. i need balance. and clearly there is no room for balance there.
i took 2 weeks off from taekwondo this summer and it was so much fun. i did whatever the hell i wanted. no worries about when to go to tkd or anything. but now this? ugh. i don't know what to do. i wanna go to the junior olypmics. but to train everyday for a year? its not appealing to me.

but anyways...so these last few weeks ive been getting anxiety. i have no clue why. i tried explaining it to my mom...and she kinda just looks at me and goes "ohhh...i wonder why" well, honey, i wonder why too. its not tkd related either. it just happens randomly during the day.

so i got food poisoning last night. second time in like...2 months? i don't even know. its absolutely horrible. CHICKEN PARM. agh. directly after eating the dinner my dad took me to the mall. i was like hunched over like a little old grandma breaking out in a cold sweat. i was literally dying. BUT i got a new cell phone. the new Envy. i love it so much. it was about time i got an upgrade ^_^

confessions of a teenage drama queen was just on disney channel. im pretty much set :)

its 5 am. and ive been playing rock band with my asian friend jasmine for 8 hours now. we are probably gonna suffer from insomnia any minute now :)

mac and cheese and rock band. my life right now <3

havent posted in a while. so heres an update

right now im obbsessed with Britney Spears Black out album. mwahaha
im constantly buying STARS magazine and creepin on Lindsay lohans life :) I watch "i know who killed me" and "mean girls" all the time on my ipod.

i haven't pissed off my mom lately so life at home is okay. although....shes asian so she freaks out all the time like most asian mothers do. its just their nature. and i haven't really learned to deal with that fully yet.

TKD is alright. Its such a drag to be on such a strict scheduale while all of youre friends are out and about hanging around enjoying the summer sunshine and beach and stuff. Its hard. but im getting used to it. sadly. Im learning weapons though and getting better everyday. so im happy

so i went to the movies today and watched Sex And the City. omg SO FUNNY. i loved it so much.

but more importantly...ive decided that my mother is completely psycho. i can't handle her crazy korean ways of thinking, and her lack of american culture. im 16 years old and its time she sees that. there are times she treats me like im older then my age and can be very reasonable. but lately..i swear to god she thinks im younger then my sister who is going into the 7th grade. I need to seperate myself for a week or so and go stay with my dad for a bit. im hopeing that this decision of mine will be a positive temporary change. i can no longer stand to look at these people in my house any longer. i need a break. and if i haven't been calling you or anything its simply because i was on house lock down. aka grounded. But im free now :)

so heres a positive post :) This whole month has been filled with very good things sports wize. Tennis team made it to the state finals. My partner and I were 2nd best in central mass for tennis this year. AND 5 people were picked for "Allstar player in tennis in central mass" for Tennis from the Telegram and Gazette, and i was one of them! i have to go to worcester this sunday to get my picture taken from then and possibly a short interview.

And as some of you know, i got my black belt XD im learning weapons now which im so excited about. If i get ahold of some videos from the testing i will post them. I NAILED my breaking technique which im really excited about. i hope someone got it on video :D

OH GAWD. jill liposky asked me to help her hand out flyers for State rep. Harold Naughton. so i did. for like 4 godamn hours 0_o LOL. im grounded at the moment, so being able to leave the house was good i guess. except i had to walk all over northborough. Of course we had to drive to the streets. but still XD i need a nap big time. PEACE

its funny when you think you know someone, but then you find out more about them that really throws you off. And its funny when you meet someone, and a side of you you never knew you had comes out.

it sucks to end the school year with shitty useless drama about "love". Ive never been such a bitch before in my life. But then again ive never met anyone who manipulates themselves into situations and feeds off reactions from people. I feel played, screwed over, and totally not able to trust anyone.

person one liked person two
person two liked person one back
person two changes their mind and likes person 3
person three doesn't swing that way
person 1 and 3 wanted get person 2 jealous and to also make person 2 not like person 3 anymore, so they act like they like each other
person 3 gives person 1 a hickie as a joke
person 2 finds out and flips out. and hates person 1's guts.but person 2 doesn't hate person 3 even though it was also their fault cause person 2 still really likes person 3.

there are so many more details. but theres the jist of things

freaky "love triangle" thats my life right now in a nutshell. Can you guess who i am? haha. don't even try.

so today was the state finals for tennis. we made it all the way there with an un-defeated season, which is pretty amazing. but today we lost against Acoton-Boxboro? or someshit like that haha. We are like the Patriots who made it all the way to the Superbowl but lost :( but a bunch of my friends came and watched today. AND my biology teacher showed up too which was the cutest thing ever. i love her haha.
After the match one of the Liposky twins took me to Wendy's and we ate dinner there to celebrate lmao. Baconator and fries is pretty much amazing.
Finals start tomorrow. Kill me.

my dad, the liposky twins, and I went to the Foreigner concert tonight. haha. i was probably the youngest person there. but it was fun! suprisingly. my dad had a blast rockin out to them. i only knew like 4 songs but it was fun anyways.

so last night my dad and I went to yama zakura. lots of details in-between BUT my dad invited my mom to come along. like this has never happened in all of my 16 years of my life i can remember. my dad my mom and myself all in the same room having civilized conversations. no fighting happened, no yelling. just laughs and smiles. the first 10 minutes of the dinner made me very nervous. why did he want my mom to be there? i have no freakin clue. LOL. i had my guard up to be very protective of my mom. but then i realized that the dinner was normal, in a weird way. So the 3 of us sat up at the sushi bar. with my mom in the middle. the dinner was kind of special to me. doesn't most kids with divorced parents want their parents to be together? even if it isn't in a love kinda way? so ya. next time i think kenny will come. and that will be great ^_^

i have a 5 page rough draft due tomorrow for some research paper. i can't even think straight right now. my mind is all over the map. i can't seem to get on track.

im hating everything right now. i want to join the monks in asia. actually no. but funny story about that. this crazy lady who brings her son to taekwondo said SHE wants to join the monks in korea. like FA REAL. she would pay me if i went with her to translate. how ridiculous is that? there is just no way i could that and put myself through that. she is so out of her mind. i decided that lawyers are so smart their out of their minds. their all crazy i tell ya. trust me on this one.

who the hell stands outside their car and sprinkles bird food around the car to watch the pigeons come and pick it up? i mean, seriously now. people are so crazy i can't even tell you.

so as of right now...im part of the second best doubles team in central mass and today is that match for all the marbles against 1st doubles notre dame. i woke up so early this morning cause im so excited!



oh and heres a picture of my awesome tennis tanline haha. and trust me, theres plenty more where that came from. My shoulders are red like lobsters :(

chocolate eclair!!! i haven't had one in so long. its like my favorite thing i swear XD

my spanish teacher must really like me cause she bought me the magazine called "men's vogue" hahaha. she bought it because there was an article about roger federer (amazing tennis player) i thought it was hilarious. The magazine is filled with men wearing gucci suits and pictures of watches no one can afford. and i guess some male gossip about celebs like the actor who plays HOUSE. stuff like that